Woo!
2003-04-26, 12:06 a.m.

Woo. Methinks Laredis has found my diary. It doesn't matter, though. My life is completely open to the world. I am an open book! Right-o.

Alice says I should be ashamed of myself. According to her, I flirt too much for someone that's in a relationship. There's no harm in flirting! Now, if I were to, like, kiss another guy, yeah. But innocent flirting is acceptable.

The problem is that she's speaking of Drew and I. He's not the kind of person that innocently flirts, if you didn't know. No; he is a very, very, physical kind of guy. I may have not made out with him or anything, but I do feel ashamed about what he's done to me.

Notice that I said, "To me." I never asked for his attempts (and sometimes successes) to dry hump me, nor have I ever wanted it. Let me say this one more time: I don't want him.

But still I feel ashamed.

Lately, Lathan seems so ... so immature. Here I am, turning 16 in a few months, but I feel like I'm 28 around him. The boy is childish, and the strong feelings I had for him last year -- when we both were mentally on the same page -- has diminished somewhat.

Whenever I flip through my old entries, including those from last year, I see his mentality in myself and I think, Damn, was I really like that? But in a year I've done a lot of growing up, but he seems to have stayed the 13-year-old boy in 8th grade. Now I'm not saying I don't like him. I do. Really. But I know he's not The One.

Matt says I should write about him, so here goes..

Matt seems like he's back to normal now. Knowing that he's his old self again has made me enormously happy. It's not like I didn't like the new Matt, mind you. I was just closer to the guy that was Matt before. 'Sides, he was getting kind of perverted there for a while. The last thing I need is another Drew, ya know?

But don't worry, Maffew. I'll always love ya. ;)

Aw, Adam just logged off. He's a cool guy. So funny and sarcastic. I love that about him.

cool55566: screw her: i'm in the mood for a peach. [Alice] says the radomest things

Miamigurl123: But it's not like I've been around very long, so I guess I really don't know what I'm talking about.

Miamigurl123: She's online now?

cool55566: yeah

Miamigurl123: I think she blocked me.

cool55566: i doubt it

cool55566: you probly have the wrong sn

Miamigurl123: Yeap. She blocked me.

Miamigurl123: I have both of her screen names, not to mention that you just gave me one of them again.

cool55566: thats nice

cool55566: oh well

cool55566: you didnt hear it from me

Miamigurl123: lol

Miamigurl123: She's so nice.

cool55566: as sweet as lemons

Miamigurl123: ^_^

cool55566: We have to do a concert tommoro

cool55566: w

Miamigurl123: What for?

cool55566: what a waste

Miamigurl123: Have fun.

cool55566: for old rich people to not have to sit in silence while slurping expensive food

Miamigurl123: Wow. I know you're gonna have a blast.

cool55566: oh yeah

cool55566: fun fun fun

Miamigurl123: lol Definitely.

cool55566: and then we have states

cool55566: oh thats right

cool55566: you should skip band on mon and tues

Miamigurl123: Damn, so you're performing pretty much back-to-back.

cool55566: yup

Miamigurl123: I already met the director, so...

cool55566: the gay guy

cool55566: the one with the earings

Miamigurl123: He [Mr. Nicholson]. Hired. A. Director. Why?

cool55566: i laughed when i saw him

Miamigurl123: Why, why, why?

Miamigurl123: He's a pretty good conductor, though.

cool55566: so i heard

cool55566: but the band isnt gonna listen to someone with two earings

Miamigurl123: According to him, we're the "most disciplined group" he has ever worked with.

cool55566: he needs to get out more

Miamigurl123: lol

Miamigurl123: That's what I said.

cool55566: tell him to go see drumline with his boyfriend

Miamigurl123: lol

Miamigurl123: That's not very nice.

cool55566: i can be as sweet as lemons, too

cool55566: u know, alice's mom is going on the trip

Miamigurl123: Obviously.

Miamigurl123: Why?

cool55566: cuz we need [a piano] accompanist [for the solos]

cool55566: who can play

Miamigurl123: Oh.

Miamigurl123: Yep. Alice is going to enjoy that trip.

cool55566: lol

cool55566: shes not really happy about that at all

cool55566: her mom can be pretty stifling

cool55566: she tends to tag along

Miamigurl123: Poor lass.

cool55566: at least she wont go to islands of adventure

Miamigurl123: Wish I could go to Islands of Adventure. *sniffle*

Miamigurl123: That's a great way to waste a day.

cool55566: you could probly fit in my clarinet case

Miamigurl123: lol

Miamigurl123: Probably.

cool55566: you could probly fit into my FLUTE case

Miamigurl123: lol

Miamigurl123: Too bad. I have school. Ho hum.

cool55566: lol

cool55566: keep rowing those oars, slave

Miamigurl123: lol

cool55566: youll never get out of it

cool55566: itll last forever

cool55566: I HATE SCHOOL

cool55566: i want to be in college

Miamigurl123: You don't have to wait much longer.

cool55566: i have another year

Miamigurl123: What's a year? A year passes quickly.

cool55566: hahahahahahahahahaha

cool55566: that was funny

Miamigurl123: Or atleast it seems like it when the year has passed..

cool55566: you would think so

cool55566: *sigh*

Miamigurl123: Adam, I'm afraid you bring out the sarcasm in me.

cool55566: go figure

Teehee.

Tomorrow is my nephew's 9-ish birthday party! All of his little friends from elementary school are going to destroy the house.

"So Marquis," I said to him earlier, "did you invite your girlfriend?"

"Ew, no!" His face bunched up. "I'm not the one with the girlfriend. That's Scooter with his teacher!"

"Nuh uh! I don't like my teacher," his younger brother defended. "She's not my teacher anymore!" XD

That's so cute!

So yeah, I'm going to have a headache. Maybe I can get Lathan to come over and we can just chill or something. Yeah.

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